Well, well it's nice to see you all! I didn't stick around for very long last time, did I?! I was going to continue writing about my dating shit show but then, I'll be honest, I got lazy! And I didn't want to do it because I found it too hard to think/analyse something that I couldn't understand. I was in an emotional game and I didn't know the rules, so how I could I talk about it?

But I'm back with a new attitude, new outlook, and a new self-esteem. I was going to delete the post in February because it brings all those emotions that I felt at the time, but also what I'm feeling now because the lad I wrote about; we're no longer in contact. I guess that leads me nicely into an update?

The Bouncer
I'm going to name him 'The Bouncer' so it's easier to keep taps of who is who! We carried on 'seeing' each other until August when I called it off for the millionth time. That's when he admitted that I was too paranoid to be in a relationship with him. The truth was finally said. The bullshit excuses of "I don't want a relationship. I'm not even thinking of being in a relationship until next year (2022).." were just that; all bullshit excuses. So, I retaliated back and then there was silence...

Well, cut to two weeks later, and he told me he was seeing someone. Cut to 5 weeks, he told me he was in a relationship.

Oh and let me tell you that HURT massively. I thought I knew what heartbroken was but that was something else.  Luckily I had amazing friends to get me through, checked up on me to make sure I was going no contact and repeated the same conversations over and over again.  Don't get us wrong; it still hurts but it doesn't hurt as much-time does heal. So he will be mentioned from time to time because I think it will help me heal from him, and learn from this too. But yeah, that's all I'm going to say for now. Boys suck! 

The Couple

Well, you know how they say 'the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else' well, I did...but two people...at the same time! Yes, you read that right! I had a threesome with this adorable, funny couple! And it may have happened again 2 weeks ago too. It was my first time sleeping with a girl and it was fun. We all get on well and vibe with each other to the point where we've got a whatsapp group! Am I in a throuple? No fucking clue!

But let me tell you, it's a massive fucking ego boost to have two people fancying you at the same time! And is it weird? Only when I think about it too much. Luckily, I'm not overthinking this because overthinking GETS you nowhere and half the time, you're thinking about something that will never happen OR SOMETHING YOU CANNOT CONTROL!!